Thoughts From a College Senior (Update)
By Danica Tamura
At the start of this academic year, I wrote a blog post about my thoughts as a senior in college, giving tips about how I have navigated college throughout the past four years and how I was excited for this chapter in my life to come to a close. Never in a million years would I imagine my last few months of college to be where it is today. I’d like to write down a few of my thoughts as someone trying to process what is supposed to be one of the biggest milestones in my life in hopes that maybe someone else reading this will feel validated and know that you are not alone in this time of uncertainty.
About a month and a half ago, I had ordered my cap and gown for my graduation ceremony - only to be told two weeks ago that I will not be having one (as scheduled). Luckily, my school is postponing my graduation so it can still be an in-person event. However, I know not everyone is as lucky. Although there are far more awful things happening in the world right now, it is okay to feel down about certain things being cancelled or postponed. Your feelings are valid!
At the beginning of the school year, my friends and I were reminiscing about the past three years we’ve spent together, and how we needed to make this year count as it would be most likely our last where we get to see each other everyday. We now have scheduled weekly zoom meetings so we can all be at the same place at the same time. I’ll be the first to say - it kinda sucks. I’m beyond grateful all my friends and family are safe, but once we are able to get life back to “normal”, my normal won’t be going back to school and living with my best friends. My new normal means looking for a job.
As if all college seniors weren’t already feeling stressed and pressured to find a post-grad job, we now have to find jobs in a world where many things will be changing - especially the job market. Having to navigate a new chapter in life during this time has been a big worry amongst me and my peers. I (as I’m sure many others in my shoes) have taken this time to really reflect on my college career and the experiences I have gone through, and how they have shaped me into who I am today. I have heavily reflected on what I have done already and how that will impact what career route I really want to pursue (yikes!). And to be honest, the only thing I am still certain about is what leggings and sweater combo I will be wearing tomorrow.
What I am trying to articulate is that these are times of huge uncertainty for people in similar situations to mine. It is confusing to be stripped of what were supposed to be some of the best months of college and have it replaced with what feels to be like retracting to our younger versions of ourselves, as most college students have moved back home. It is confusing to feel guilty that memories we were excited to make have been compromised, knowing there are people out there who are in way worse situations than us. Bottom line, I just want to say that it is okay to be sad, confused, heartbroken, etc at this time because no one has the correct answers on how to cope with what is happening. But despite everything, you are not alone, we will all get through this together!